Saturday, January 14, 2012

The Thirteenth Step by Robert Hayward

The Thirteenth Step: Ancient Solutions to the Contemporary Problems of Alcoholism and Addiction using the Timeless Wisdom of The Native American Church Ceremony



by Robert Hayward

  • Paperback: 346 pages



  • Publisher: Native Son Publishers Inc. (April 18, 2011)



  • Language: English



  • ISBN-10: 0983638403


  • ISBN-13: 978-0983638407


  • The Thirteenth Step is a powerful and true recounting of the life of Robert Hayward. Hayward's life story weaves the real and the mysterious, the personal and the universal into a uniquely gripping story of self-discovery through his spiritual awakening within the Native American Church; an awakening that saved his life. The Thirteenth Step documents, for the first time ever, ancient ceremonies that have been conducted in the same manner for thousands of years, yet never shared with outsiders. Through Hayward's own journey of redemption, the reader will experience the words, wisdom, and teachings of The Native American Church, and encounter a spirituality that until now, has been accessible only to those born into the traditional Native American culture.

    About the Author

    Robert Hayward was born August 23, 1959, the ninth out of ten children, to very loving and devoted parents. His parents were animators who met while working for Walt Disney. They were part of the original crew that developed Mickey Mouse, Pinocchio, The Three Little Pigs, and many more. In the late 1970 s Robert studied at Laguna College of Art and Design, in Laguna Beach, CA. In August of 2000 he was commissioned to design and build a memorial to honor a fallen Native American firefighter, who lost his life while protecting the La Jolla Indian Reservation in San Diego County. Robert graduated from Palomar Community College in San Diego, CA, in 2011 earning a Certification as a Licensed Drug and Alcohol Counselor (CAADAC). Robert has been studying and writing about Native American history and religion for over 30 years. Linked to the Native American community by blood, he has been mentored by traditional Medicine Men and Roadmen since his youth.

    Thursday, January 12, 2012

    When I Have Fears That I Might Cease To Be

    When I have fears that I may cease to be
    Before my pen has glean'd my teeming brain,
    Before high piled books, in charact'ry,
    Hold like rich garners the full-ripen'd grain;
    When I behold, upon the night's starr'd face,
    Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
    And think that I may never live to trace
    Their shadows, with the magic hand of chance;
    And when I feel, fair creature of an hour,
    That I shall never look upon thee more,
    Never have relish in the faery power
    Of unreflecting love!—then on the shore
    Of the wide world I stand alone, and think
    Till Love and Fame to Nothingness do sink.



    Okay, seriously, I can't do that. I simply cannot do what John Keats does here. It is his remedy against his fears. It cannot be my remedy. 


    I've always had fears that I may cease to be before my pen has gleaned my teeming brain. Alas, alarmist mother. Hypochondria. And ill health. What can I say? Seriously, I have moments when I can't get out of bed, the fear can be so paralyzing.


    But I cannot sit around trying to think until love and fame sink or shrink to nothingness. 


    So when I have these fears that I can't start yet another book because I might not live to finish it, I hold to God. I hold to His power. I ascribe to Him glory and strength. I trust in His miraculous power to heal and preserve me.


    In this way, I'm different from Keats. And I have to be aware of this difference. 


    Sometimes we have to search then separate ourselves from our favorite poems because those poems and songs however lovely or sweet or hooked into our souls are simply wrong for a Christian to think.


    I used to love Simon and Garfunkel's "I am a Rock" when I was a kid. But now I must yank the roots of that song out of me. I like the tune of Imagine. It feels almost like a hymn. But it's not a hymn. It's nihilism disguising itself as life and joy. Just as this song by sweet Keats is a giving in to despair. He prepared himself to die...and perhaps he had no other chance because the Christian faith of those around him had not been wholly severed from its rationalistic non-miraculous moorings. But I have spent 52 years, trying to find the power of God in my present life. And I believe I have found it. I'm holding on to hope and faith and to the idea of miracles and healing because that is what my Christian faith promises me. Lord, I ascribe to you, glory, power, love, and strength.


    Friday, January 06, 2012

    The Eleven Books that have influenced me and my writing


    The Bible
    Complete Shakespeare
    Complete James Joyce
    Complete Flannery O'Connor
    Portable Edgar Allen Poe
    Washington Square by Henry James
    The Pilgrim's Regress
    The Pilgrim's Progress
    Pensees Blaise Pascal
    Training in Christianity, Soren Kierkegaard
    Eternity in their Hearts, Don Richardson 


    Yeah, i know... I wasn't into modern books at all.


    Fiction Anthologies I'm gonna try to submit to this year

    Sometimes one gets all caught up in writing a novel and one forgets about short stories, so here goes...the short fiction anthos that look interesting to me and that I'm gonna try to write something for.



    Childhood Nightmares Anthology
    UNDER THE BED
    They haunt us all. Those whispered tales of monsters hiding under the bed, or of the demons lurking in the shadowy corner where we dare not glance for fear that seeing them will make them all too real. Oh, how the innocent landscape of a child’s imagination lends fertile soil to horrors ready to be sown on the slightest of sounds; the tales and the terror they wreak on our youthful minds never quite leaves us.
    Reach into the forgotten recesses of your twisted mind. Share with us the tales of nightmares that can only thrive in the hidden corners of a child’s imaginings; the bogeyman under the bed, the outlandishly fiendish clown perched upon a rocker, the slight murmur of sound coming from the closet… did you close the door completely? Explore the myriad terrors that only a child can twist from nothing into some ‘thing’ in the span of a single rapid breath.
    Do you dare delve into your own memories for inspiration? Perhaps you’ll start sleeping with the lights on again... Tell us, who is Under the Bed?
    Submission guidelines;
    Deadline for submissions - Monday, January 30th, 2012.
    4000 - 10,000 words.
    Please submit your manuscript as a *.doc or *.docx file in Verdana; 12 point font; single spacing and standard formatting. Graphic gore must be kept to a minimum unless it is integral to the story; absolutely no incestuous or sexual abuse storylines will be considered.
    Only stories previously unpublished may be submitted. Upon acceptance into the anthology, you agree that Sirens Call Publications holds exclusive publishing rights for twelve (12) months from the date of publication; after that date has passed, all intellectual property rights revert to the author with the proviso that Sirens Call Publications retains distribution rights in the format of the contracted anthology.
    An eBook copy will be sent to all contributors and up to 5 paperback copies per author will be available to purchase at cost. 50% of the royalties will be distributed between all contributors.
    Email your submission as an attachment to; submissions@SirensCallPublications.com
    The email subject line must read "SUBMISSION - Under The Bed - ‘your story title’" or your submission will not be considered for this anthology.



    http://www.sirenscallpublications.com/anthology_nightmare.htm 

    Since its early days, science fiction has played a unique role in human civilization. It removes the limits of what "is" and shows us a boundless vista of what "might be."  Its fearless heroes, spectacular technologies and wondrous futures have inspired many people to make science, technology and space flight a real part of their lives and in doing so, have often transformed these fictions into reality.  The National Space Society and Baen Books applaud the role that science fiction plays in advancing real science and have teamed up to sponsor this short fiction contest in memory of Jim Baen.

    CONTEST RULES:

    -Write a short story of no more than 8,000 words, that shows the near future (no more than about 50-60 years out) of manned space exploration. 

    -No entry fee.  But please only submit one story...your best one!

    -No reprints.

    -All entries must be original works in English. Plagiarism, poetry, song lyrics, or characters from another person’s works will not be considered. 

    -E-mail submissions only.  Send entries as .RTF attachments to:  baen.nss.contest@gmail.com 
      
    -Please put the word SUBMISSION in the subject line when sending a contest entry and QUESTION in the subject line for questions to the contest administrator. 

    -Please include the following in the body of your email:  The title of the work, the author's name, address and telephone number, and an approximate word-count. The manuscript should be an RTF attachment, in standard manuscript format and should be titled and numbered on every page, but the author's name MUST BE DELETED to facilitate fair judging.

    -Employees of Baen Books, NSS and previous Grand Prize Winner are not eligible. Previous Second and Third place winners are eligible.
    -Contest opens for submissions on October 1, 2011
      (entries sent before that date will be deleted unread)
    -Deadline - February 1, 2012. 

    WHAT WE DO WANT TO SEE: 
    Moon bases, Mars colonies, orbital habitats, space elevators, asteroid mining, artificial intelligence, nano-technology, realistic spacecraft, heroics, sacrifice, adventure. 

    WHAT WE DON'T WANT TO SEE: 
    Stories that show technology or space travel as evil or bad, Star Wars type galactic empires, paranormal elements, UFO abductions. 

    JUDGES: 
    Judging will be by Baen Books editors Hank Davis, Jim Minz and a yet to be announced Baen Books author.

    PRIZES: 
    - The GRAND PRIZE winner will be published as the featured story on the Baen Books main website and paid at the normal paying rates for professional story submittals. The author will also receive an engraved award, free entry into the 2012 International Space Development Conference, a year's membership in the National Space Society and a prize package containing various Baen Books and National Space Society merchandise. 

    - SECOND and THIRD place winners will receive a year's membership in the National Space Society and a prize package containing various Baen Books and National Space Society merchandise. 

    - Winners will be announced and notified no later than March 15, 2012. (only the winners will be notified) The winners will be honored at the 2012 International Space Development Conference in Washington D.C., May 24-28, 2012.Huntsville. (though we would prefer the winner attend the conference, it is not required.) 

    ( * Note: Publication details will be worked out between winner and Baen Books. In the unlikely event that none of the stories qualify for professional publication, a cash prize, of an amount determined by contest organizers, may be substituted in lieu of publication.)


    http://www.williamledbetter.com/contest.htm



    AVON IMPULSE



    Around her hair she wore a yellow ribbon
    She wore it in the springtime
    In the merry month of May
    And if you ask her why the heck she wore it
    She wore it for her soldier who was far far away
    Calling all writers! Avon Impulse is looking for manuscript submissions 
    for a collection of Yellow Ribbon romance. Just as the song indicates, 
    we’re looking for stories where a soldier is returning home from war. 
    Who is waiting for him/her? What was left unsaid? Where do they go from 
    here?
    If you’ve got a story (up to 25k words), we want to read it. Be 
    creative. Be sexy. Ready. Set. Go!
    Deadline is January 31, 2012.
    1 – The submission process is open to all writers, not just US residents.
    2 – Submit through our Impulse tab – that is how we’re accepting queries and submissions, both for digital-first and print.
    3 – No restrictions in terms of explicit material.

    http://www.avonromance.com/impulse/
    http://www.avonromance.com/2011/10/12/open-call-for-submissions/

    Submit here:
    http://www.avonromance.com/impulse/

    Want to be an Avon writer? Follow these easy guidelines and you’re one step closer to making your dreams come true.

    Avon is looking for stories of emotional complexity, written by authors with unique voices. Books with humor, drama, suspense; with sizzling sensuality and irresistible characters—all types and tones can be right for Avon. If your manuscript is exciting, electrifying, and exceptional then we want to see it. Take us to the darkest depths or make us laugh out loud—everything is welcome!

    We’re actively seeking all genres of romance of all lengths, including (but not limited to): historical, paranormal, contemporary, and erotica.

    How To Submit A Manuscript
    To submit, go to AvonImpulse.com and follow the instructions to fill out the form and upload your manuscript. Due to time constraints, we will not be able to respond to every query. If you do not receive a response after three months, that means your story is not right for us at that time. However, times change, so keep trying!

    Genres:
    Gothic
    Steampunk
    Shifter
    Vampire
    Ghost
    Magical
    Futuristic
    Time Travel
    Western
    Small Town
    Suspense
    Fantasy

    Submissions FAQ
    How long does my book need to be?
    We are looking for stories of all lengths, from short stories to full length books, and anything inbetween.

    What font/margin/size should I use?
    Your formatting choices are up to you. As long as your manuscript is readable, it’s acceptable.

    Which editor should I address my submission to?
    There is no need to specify an editor. However, if you have a past relationship with someone on the Avon team, or one of our editors specifically requested you submit your manuscript, please note that on the submission form.

    Do I need to specify which Avon imprint I am submitting to?
    No, all submissions are vetted by the same team of Avon editors, who will decide which imprint is the best fit.

    How long will you take to respond?
    Due to the volume of submissions, we will only be able to contact you if your project is the right fit. If you have not received a response in three months time, unfortunately your project wasn’t right for our current list.

    Can I still submit to the avonromance@harpercollins.com email address?
    No, please go here.

    Will you accept manuscript even if the subgenre isn’t listed?
    Yes, on the submission form, choose “other” and write in your subgenre.

    I’m an agent. Should I use this to submit my client’s manuscript?
    No, this submission form is for authors only. Agents should pitch and submit projects in the usual fashion.





    King David & the Spiders from Mars: Submission Guidelines
    Due to the positive response to She Nailed a Stake Through His Head: Tales of Biblical Terror, I will be editing another Bible-themed anthology. Tentatively titled King David & The Spiders from Mars: More Tales of Biblical Terror, this will be a Bible-themed horror anthology specifically based on The Book of Samuel. Some of my favorite stories from the first anthology were David centered including Elissa Malcohn's "Judgement at Naioth" and Christi Krug's "As If Favorites of Their God." 

    What I'm Looking For: Short stories, ideally between 1000-12000 words. All stories must be based in some way on the book of Samuel (usually edited to be 1 & 2) which is the story about how Israel transitioned from a Judge based society to a kingdom under King David. Even though this is primarily a horror anthology, I'm willing to look at stories that fall into different categories including bizarro, science fiction, fantasy, literary and romance (although if you write a romance between Tamar and Amnon, I'm going to be worried about you and not in a good way). There are several stories within Samuel including the madness of Saul, the end of Eli's family as the major priesthood, David & Goliath and the death of Absalom so feel free to use whatever inspires you. Also, even though the Book of Ruth is a completely different book, it serves as a prequel to the David saga so if you got a great Ruth story, I will read it.

    Check out this Amazon List for reading suggestions. Please at least read the book of Samuel once to get the flavor of the stories. If you only know the story of David & Goliath, you will be at a disadvantage since that's the most popular story in the bunch and you will have a lot of competition. 

    Also, if you are going to do a David & Goliath story read the original. This is a much more interesting story than the children's books would have you believe and all that "come from behind victory" blather is inaccurate (not to mention boring as hell). 

    Other Suggestions: 
    Retellings of Biblical Stories from the perspective of another character.
    Kiastic Storytelling
    Deconstructionist Commentary akin to Rashi
    Biblical stories retold in different literary styles (high adventure, Victorian, Romance, Mystery, etc.)
    Modern stories told in the Biblical style (Best use Robert Alter's Art of Biblical Poetry and Art of Biblical Narrative if you want a crash course)
    Parodies of Prophets
    "Queen Esther vs. The Brain Eating Penis Monster from Outer Space" (note that just sticking this title on a lame story is not going to endear you to me. Write a story that would justify this kind of title and I'm interested)
    Biblical Movie Parodies 

    I am also impressed by the following: original takes on classic stories, strong female characters, stories that actually understand the original tales, style. 

    Formatting Guidelines: Please use Standard Manuscript format. I am going to be a little more hard on people not using this format since the last time I had stories where I couldn't get back to the writers because they neglected to put their emails on the stories so I had no way of knowing how to tell them that they were rejected. One even made it to the Maybe pile. Please submit in .rtf or .doc. 

    What I am not Looking For:I have a blog post for the first Bible anthology where I go off on the "do not want" list. It basically comes down to "no preachiness" which is the major pitfall for people tackling these kind of stories. I don't want a story with an agenda - whether it's atheist, Christian or Jewish. I am not interested in other stories in the Bible. Do not set a Sodom & Gomorrah story in San Francisco. Do not send poetry. Do not retell a Bible story from a character's perspective that adds absolutely nothing to the narrative. In the last anthology, I got a bunch of stories that had to stop to tell me that "Jesus is love" but since this one is about King David, I figure there will be less of those in this slush pile. Still, don't do that. 

    Also note that all snotty replies to rejections will be aired publicly on this blog and mocked mercilessly. 

    Pay: $50 advance against equal share of royalties - to be paid out no later than publication. 

    Reading Period: November 1, 2011 - January 31, 2012. All stories submitted before November 1 will be deleted unread. Although that's the best case scenario. If I do read them I will mock them on this blog. I am using a three month window as well as waiting until November 1 because I don't want trunk stories and I doubt anyone has been submitting their awesome King David Rips Off Foreskins story to markets until now. This gives you time to write an original story and send it by November 1 or to spend about 4 months perfecting it until it's ready at the end of January. 

    Reprints. Yes. Same price. Make sure you tell me where it was originally published and that it is available for reprint right sales. 

    Send to: timlieder1 - at - gmail.com

    Feel free to repost these Submission guidelines where ever there are interested parties.
    http://marlowe1.livejournal.com/1953612.html



    NEW ANTHOLOGY: Bibliotheca Fantastica opens for submissions Dec 15, 2011
    November 14, 2011 By Dagan Books Leave a Comment
    We are pleased to announce that we have acquired the services of renowned author, Claude Lalumière, to edit a new anthology for 2012, with co-editor Don Pizarro! We are thrilled to see what this editorial team will bring to Dagan Books. With an original cover by Art Director Galen Dara, and a commitment to bringing the same kind of diversity and originality that you’ve come to expect from our publications, we are sure this anthology will be wonderful. Wouldn’t you like to be a part of it? Details are below:
    Bibliotheca Fantastica
    What we want: Stories having to do with lost, rare, weird, or imaginary books, or any aspect of book history or book culture, past, present, future, or uchronic. Any genre. Although the fantastical is not essential per se, stories should evoke a sense of the fantastic, the unknown, the weird, wonder, terror, mystery, pulp, and/or adventure, etc.
    Originals only, no reprints. We would appreciate no simultaneous submissions. Accepting stories of up to 10,000 words in length, though shorter stories are preferred.
    We will accept submissions from December 15, 2011, at noon EST, to midnight EST on March 31, 2012. We are taking submissions through an automated system that will not allow you to submit before December 15, but the link to do so will appear here: http://daganbooks.submishmash.com/submit
    Dagan Books is paying 2 cents per word for each accepted story, plus contributor copies. Bibliotheca Fantastica will be available in both print and ebook, and is scheduled to be published Fall 2012.
    About the editors:

    Claude Lalumière is the author of two books – the collection Objects of Worship and the novella The Door to Lost Pages – as well as the co-creator of Lost Myths, and is the Fantastic Fiction columnist for The Montreal Gazette. He has edited numerous anthologies, and has sold more than 50 pieces of short fiction in the last decade.
    Don Pizarro is an author of short fiction, and editor for Dagan Books. In addition to this anthology he is also editing Cthulhurotica 2 in 2012.


    http://daganbooks.com/2011/11/14/new-anthology-bibliotheca-fantastica-opens-for-submissions-dec-15-2011/



    MVmedia, LLC
    Presents

    Griots II: Sisters of the Spear Writers Guidelines

    The purpose of the Griots II: Sisters of the Spear Anthology is to pay respect and homage to women of color and continue to expand the definition of Sword and Soul. Our hope is that the anthology will become an annual publication which will inspire more writers to take part and expand the readership. We also hope to increase the diversity of the Sword and Sorcery genre by publishing quality stories with rich characters that transcend the barriers of mainstream publishers.

    1. Story Length: 2,500 to 15,000 words

    2. Deadline: May 31, 2012

    3. Story Description: Stories must contain a woman or women of color as the main protagonist(s) and portray her/them in a positive, heroic light. The story must be based in African culture, history and/or mythology and contain original characters. We will not accept fan fiction or stories based on previous characters unless they are your own. The stories must contain an element of high adventure, action and supernatural encounters, (monsters, demons, spirits, etc.). Romance can be included as well but mustn’t overshadow the action. Preference will be given to female authors; however the final selection will be based on the quality of the story submitted as deemed by the editors.

    4. Authors will retain all rights to their stories.

    5. We will pay $25.00 per story if accepted. 

    6. Once a story is accepted an artist will be chosen by the publisher to create an illustration based on the story. We have a number of artists that have asked to contribute. If you have your own artist you wish to use, please let us know.

    7. Submissions should be in Word Document 97- 2003 format, rich text or .doc. Documents should be double-spaced. Please include author’s name, story title and page number on each page.


    8. Go for it and have fun. Sword and Soul Forever!




    Apex Publications will be publishing a follow-up to the Nebula, Bram Stoker, and Black Quill nominated anthology, Dark Faith.  The book will be 80,000 words and pay five cents a word (up to four thousand words).  It will debut late-summer 2012.  We buy First World anthology print rights and digital rights (for three years).
    Everyone believes in something and we want you to put those beliefs to the test.  We’re looking for the story only you could write, something deeply personal and at the same time universal.  We’re looking for smart, literate stories that don’t proselytize or stereotype.  Stories that make you think, that comment on the human condition and the social order.  Stories that are rich in their use of language.
    However, as much as we love social commentary, don’t forget to entertain us.  The best way to get a feel for what we’re looking for is to read Dark Faith.
    Submissions will be accepted from 1/1/2012 until 1/31/2012.  Unsolicited stories received outside this time frame will be deleted unread.
    Please include a cover letter with your submission (even if we know you).  Please send no more than one submission at a time.  No reprints.  Simultaneous submissions will be accepted as long as you tell us up front (and immediately withdraw the story if you sell it).
    All submissions must be emailed as an RTF file to Maurice Broaddus and Jerry Gordon atdarkfaithantho@gmail.com

    http://mauricebroaddus.com/?p=3224 


    Science Fiction Holiday Submissions Call

    Carina Press is pleased to announce a call for submissions for our 2012 holiday collections. This will be the only open collection call for 2012 and is an excellent opportunity for authors interested in participating in the normally by-invitation-only Carina Press collections.
    Carina is looking for science fiction novellas with a winter holiday theme, to be published digitally both individually and as a collection in December 2012. The novellas should be from 18,000 to 35,000 words and feature science fiction elements as integral to the novella. The stories do not need to be romance, or even have romance elements, but can be straight science fiction, or science fiction with romantic elements, and can also feature elements of mystery, thriller, horror or other sub-genres. Additionally, there is no set heat level for these stories, so they can have no sex, or be ultra-sexy, or anything in between.
    I recognize that saying simply “science fiction” leaves room for a tremendous amount of interpretation within the genre. However, this is preferable as I feel narrowing it down too much might leave out something amazing.
    Essentially, we’re looking for interesting, creative, well-written stories within the science fiction genre that will appeal to readers’ imaginations and add to our growing catalog of science fiction stories.
    The science fiction holiday collection will be edited by Angela James and  supported by a marketing and promotion campaign both online and in print. In addition,  each author chosen to contribute to the anthology will receive a set number of limited-edition print copies for their own use in giveaways and contests (or to decorate their own bookshelves).
    To submit, please send your completed manuscript and synopsis, along with query letter to submissions@carinapress.com by March 15th, 20112. In the subject line, please put SciFi Holiday: Manuscript Title and Author
    All submissions will be reviewed and final decision made by April 30th, 2012.
    For questions about this call for submissions, please email Angela James at submissions@carinapress.com
    For more information about Carina Press, and to read the submission guidelines, please visit www.carinapress.com
    *permission to forward granted*

    Embracing Motherhood

    Okay, so now I'm 52. Not really so old in the grand scheme of things, but when one considers that many African-American women die at 67, well, who knows? I am intending to live til age 115 should Jesus tarry (unless the world is really way crappy by then)  Which means I will have to deal with femininity and the world's stereotypes and expectations for older black women. Unfortunately, unless one is Diana Ross, the world desexualizes older women, especially Black older women and Non-white older women. We are immediately placed in the category of wise old crone, hag, etc. Unless we go all cougar. Which I really can't see myself doing.

    (I'd have to imagine life without hubby, period of grieiving, burial etc...to reach the imaginative state of being a single gorgeous cougar with young gorgeous hotties after her. And although I like looking at gorgeous hotties, I really like having hubby around. So yeah, my imagination can't go there. Yeah, for better or worse, I prefer imagining stuff that I really would like to happen. )

    Ooh, that reminds me, before I forget. A dream from an online contact has really connected to me. She dreamed that she saw Jesus homeless, looking all icky and well, like how homeless folks look. So we got to talking about that dream and whether it was Jesus identifying with the poor, the prisoner, the sick and what all else? My take on it was that perhaps we the church just haven't given Jesus a home in our hearts and spirits. And that really made me start thinking about the purity of my mind, spirit, and heart. If my spirit and body and mind are temples for God, they should be clean. I'm generally good about inner cleanliness. If I find anger, malice, untruthfulness, lust, uncleanness, selfishness, etc in my personality or character, I set out to clean myself of them and to repent. But there are a few besetting sins.

    Which leads to this embracing motherhood thing. I don't mean embracing motherhood for my own children, but embracing the term Moms, Mami, and all those terms which folks on the internet and on the street call me. I have one of those faces that makes strangers like me, and which makes young guys come to ask me deep questions about life, women, etc. The funny thing is on the whole I have embraced it. But there is still a part of me that lusts and I have to put that under the blood of Jesus, as we Christians say. And really, I rather like guys on the internet and on the street calling me Moms or emailing me for questions (ah thank you God for blinding them to the fact that I might actually be lusting after them1) And thank God, holiness is improving.

    So yeah, Wise Motherly figure....I can deal with that. Crone, hag, not so much. Cougar....not on your life. Even if I end up being a 115 year old hottie. 

    Wednesday, January 04, 2012

    Scripture versus the Word of the Lord

    Many Christians need to differentiate between Scripture and the Word of the Lord. Some even need to differentiate between The Law, The Laws and the Prophets, Scripture and the Word of the Lord.

    IF we live only by the letter of the law and think of God's word only as Scripture, we are not living a full relationship with God who wants us to worship Him in spirit and in truth.

    Think of the ways of worshiping God. A good way to think about this is to think about the historical books, I & II Samuel, I&II Kings. I&II Chronicles. In those books we find four types of people.

    The school of the prophet (to whom Elijah, Elisha, Macaiah, Jonah, and all those prophets belonged):
    They didn't have the Torah or the law but the holy spirit was upon them and they followed God. They didn't stray from the path because they hung out together (hence the "school" of the prophet)  so they could correct each other but if they had the Laws or the Torah no one really knows.

    The priests who traditionally worked in the temple.
    The Book of the Law was lost until it was found during the days when King Josiah was restoring the temple. The priests basically did traditional stuff that their predecessors did. But no one really knew what the Bible was. After the book was found, the king tore his clothes in repentance and the people were told the proper way to God.

    The people (who included the king and the normal people)
    The behavior of the kings and the people varied. Sometimes a few did good but for the most part, the people of Israel back in the day had a strange mixture of religion. They worshiped the Brass Serpent pole. They worshiped the Queen of Heaven, Ishtar and had her prayer beads. They had fertility rites and temple prostitutes and yet they considered themselves God's people.

    The false priests of Baal.
    These were people who were totally sure of their God and totally sure of their own false religion and were affecting how God's people behaved.

    Anyway, the upshot of this is that for most of that time, people could only follow God by what the holy spirit told to them. This is known as "The Word of the Lord." Paul uses it in the New Testament when he says, "I heard this by the Word of the Lord." Words of the Lord can be visions, dreams, deep impressions from God, audible words spoken by God, words from an angel. (Of course one has to be really sure that these words are from God.) Joseph, Mary's husband, had a word from the Lord through dreams. The Wise Men from the east had dreams and insight into the Star, also words from the Lord. Elizabeth heard the word of the Lord when the baby leaped in her womb. Simeon received a word from the Lord through a revelation from God. Zacharias received a word from the Lord from the angel.

    Now the trouble with Words from the Lord is that often it is only between the person and God and the person has to hold onto this truth that God has revealed to her/him ---often in spite of what others say. This is revealed quite clearly in this passage in 1 Kings Chapter 13

    This prophet was told something. He believed God told it. God hadn't told anyone but this prophet had heard it by the Word of the Lord. So he goes and does what God does. But then he meets another prophet who tells him something else. And he believes the other prophet instead of trusting God's word to him.

    We are told to develop a relationship with God. This means we have to learn to hear his voice. And that isn't hard because He says, MY sheep hear my voice." So, the trouble is...when we hear the voice of God do we acknowledge it as God's voice.

    If we are told something in a dream or are warned about something, that is the Word of the Lord even though it is not Scripture.

    God still speaks today. And it is His Holy Spirit working in us that enables us to discern His truth. The letter kills but the Spirit gives life. The Bible can kill you if you don't come to it with the Holy Spirit, or if you listen to what ministers interpret it. The Spirit and the Written Word must agree and God will tell you in your spirit what the Scripture really means and how it applies to you or to events happening in the world.

    I would've given up on certain hopes if God hadn't told me by the word of the Lord to continue. And when I want to give up on certain things, I hold on because I know God has promised me by the Word of the Lord. And I've had guidance about my health that has helped me even though doctors poo-poohed it. I've been really been given a divine rebuke lately because I haven't been doing what God told me to do.

    Anyway, I have to commit. Obedience is very necessary. And this means obedience not only to Scripture but to the Word of the Lord that he has spoken to us in dreams or in visions

    14 For God speaketh once, yea twice, yet man perceiveth it not. 15 In a dream, in avision of the night, when deep sleep falleth upon men, in slumberings upon the bed; 16 Then he openeth the ears of men, and sealeth their instruction, 17 That he may withdraw man from his purpose, and hide pride from man. 18 He keepeth back his soul from the pit, and his life from perishing by the sword. Job 33:14-18

    The instructions one receives in dreams prevent one from dying! To not listen to them is disobedience, and disobedience is as the sin of witchcraft. It is that bad to sin against what God has personally revealed to one's spirit.


    So then, God's lists of things he has told me to do:

    No restaurant food: my food is as good as restaurants
    No processed food
    No chocolate
    No pork, cold cuts, processed meats, corn
    No tomato sauce

    Eat natural sweets like fruits rather than manmade foods
    Eat turkey, fish, grean peas beans, potatoes
    No red meat

    Wednesday, December 28, 2011

    Second Lead Syndrome -- Who should get the girl?

    Most readers and writers understand second lead syndrome. It's that strange feeling in the heart that perhaps the heroine (sometimes it's the hero) should choose to marry the Other Guy and not the main male character.

    In some romances, the main female character has lived an unloved life. Then suddenly two perfect guys come out of the woodwork (sometimes they are friends, related, enemies) and they both want her.

    Sometimes it's easy for the reader to pick the True Love our heroine should ride off into the sunset with. IF it's too easy, there's a cheat involved. Bad writing usually makes the second lead somewhat evil and unworthy of our heroine; he has an evil secret or an unacceptable flaw or he doesn't really love her for herself. Good writing makes both guys equally flawed, equally loving, equally good. Thus good SLT should divide the heroine and twist her heartstrings as much as it twists the heartstrings of the reader and the author. When writing a scene with the Second Lead, the writer should be totally confused as to whether her heroine will choose this guy. This is when Second Lead Syndrome really kicks in. Because the author is as in love with the second lead as she is with the main character. She can see that a life with the poor guy would be just as happy for the heroine as a life with the rich guy.

    This second lead thing pops up in many stories. Harry Potter/Hermione/Ron     Edward/Bella/Jacob  Of course the choice must be made because we don't live in a world where the heroine can have both guys, even if she wants them both. Why do we always want them both? (Or is it...why do I always want her to have them both?) So for those of us living in our society with our societal norms of marriage, if the heroine keeps  both her lovers, we're talking sin (to the puritanical mind), menage a trois (for the lustful mind) and piggy behavior (for the folks who have fairness issues.)

    We want to choose a guy who's perfect for her. Or we want her to choose a guy because she's perfect for him.

    I don't know but I have these moments where I find myself watching a movie and getting very annoyed with whom the heroine chooses. A lot of issues having to do with class, societal ideas about marriageability. Real subtle racial issues. I'll have to deal with that in another blog.

    Of course, I cheated in Constant Tower. Our heroine gets the guys. <-- note: guys. Although it's a bit complicated and one wonders who the relationships will pan out in actuality, because these are truce marriages after all.

    Friday, December 23, 2011

    Blessed be the names of the Lord

    The Lord has so many names and all those names should be blessed and are blessed because they tell us so much about Christ's work, character, and glory.

    Bless the name Jesus because "God saves" His people from Sin, Sickness, Hell, and Death. Through this name, we have a Friend who sticks closer than a brother. We can speak to this great sweet Jesus who is all that the prophet Job wished for, one who has one hand on God's shoulder and the other on ours.

    Bless the name "Our Great High Priest" because there is one Mediator between God and Man, Jesus Christ the Righteous and there is no other word among men whereby we must be saved.

    Bless the name "Prince of Peace" because through him there is Peace between God's Justice and God's Love toward us, and He has broken down the dividing wall between Jew and Gentile. He has given us Peace that passes understanding, and through Him the Wonderful Counsellor, the Holy Spirit, has come to all men.

    Bless the name Christ/Messiah because He is the anointed one whom the whole world awaited and who had been anointed by God with an anointing far above all humans to do a great work far above all humans, all angels, and all gods.

    Bless the name Son of God because he is God's Dear Son and because before the world was He was -- or rather "before the world was I AM" and he lived with the father and when no human was found who could stand in the gap, the Father sent the only begotten Son, who is the image of the Father, to show us what the father is like. He and the Father are ONE, and whoever has seen him has seen the Father.

    Bless the name Son of Man because He is the descendant of Adam the Son of God and is the second Adam who creates a new race of humans, because He is the awaited One who has restored the earth to humanity, taken it away from the usurper, and made manifest the true Sons of God. Through His perfect Life and death, Man has the right to

    Bless the name the Great Shepherd of the Sheep because He is our Good Shepherd and is not a hired hand. He gives His life for His sheep and lead us to still waters.

    Bless the name "the bishop of our souls" because He does oversee our souls and all of God's Called-Out Ones.

    Bless the name "King of kings and Lord of Lords" because He has made us a kingdom of priests and has given us authority and power over all the demons on earth that trouble us.

    Bless the name "Bread of Life" because He is the true bread that came down from heaven and because He is Living Water.

    Bless the name Redeemer because He has bought us back from Sin who owned us and paid us Death, Sickness, and Hell for our wages. We are free and our chains are cast off and we have returned to our true owner and Father, the God of Lights, Love, Truth, and Mercy.

    Bless the name "Bruiser of the serpent's head" because all creation groaned and waited for the . to whom who

    Bless the name The Lamb of God because He was the lamb sacrificed from the foundation of the earth. Because of his perfect life, and sacrificial death, He has the right to open the seven seals of the scrolls that proclaim ownership of the earth. Through His sinless blood, we humans are able to stand before God perfectly righteous as if we had never sinned and we conquer the Enemy of man by the blood of this pure Lamb and by the Word of our testimony of Him.

    Bless the name Lord because He is the "owner and master" of the earth and He is worthy to be praised and obeyed because He has wrestled with principalities and won. He took captivity captive and gave gifts to men.

    Bless the name "Word of God" because He is everything God ever spoke about Man, the Universe, Angels made into a living human being, and Man does not live by bread alone but by every word that comes from the mouth of God

    Bless the name "The Great Physician" because He was wounded for our transgressions, the chastisement for our Peace was upon Him and by His wounds we were healed

    Bless the name "Light of the World" because the world lay in sin not knowing what or who God was. They worshiped stone and wood and demons who meant only to destroy them. But now the world can arise and shine for its Light has come and those who live in great darkness have seen His great Light.

    Bless the name the Author of our Faith, because at the end of time He will have written our lives in the Book of Life.

    Bless the name the Captain of our Salvation because He is The Lord Strong in Battle.

    Bless the name the Friend that sticks closer than a Brother, because he knows when we sit and when we stand and he is acquainted with all our ways, hearts and thoughts.

    Bless the name Emmanuel because "God is indeed with us" -- He lives within us to make us holy, He stands beside us as our Advocate and Counsellor against all the adversary's accusations. He came to earth to live and die as one of us and he has been subjected to all the temptations we have been subjected to...yet He did not sin.





    12Giving thanks unto the Father, which hath made us meet to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in light:
    13Who hath delivered us from the power of darkness, and hath translated us into the kingdom of his dear Son: 14In whom we have redemption through his blood, even the forgiveness of sins:
    15Who is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of every creature: 16For by him were all things created, that are in heaven, and that are in earth, visible and invisible, whether they be thrones, or dominions, or principalities, or powers: all things were created by him, and for him: 17And he is before all things, and by him all things consist. 18And he is the head of the body, the church: who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead; that in all things he might have the preeminence. 19For it pleased the Father that in him should all fulness dwell; 20And, having made peace through the blood of his cross, by him to reconcile all things unto himself; by him, I say, whether they be things in earth, or things in heaven.  Colossians 1:12-20

    Thursday, December 22, 2011

    Oh, Holy Night (Lyrics in Navajo)

    Jesus is Lord vs Jesus as Saviour

    In the Bible, the confection of the early church was Jesus is Lord.

    Nowadays Christians say "Jesus is my saviour." Or they say "Jesus saves." Which is all true. Jesus has saved us. But should we not obey him? And why are we so focused ONLY on His saving us from sin? Has he not also saved the earth? And is he not also to be utterly obeyed?

    Jesus says, "My friends are those who hear the word and keep it."

    The way the early church knew someone was converted to Christ was not that the person went around saying "Jesus is my savior" but that the person acknowledged that Jesus was Lord and to be obeyed BECAUSE he is the perfect holy son of God and the one who has redeemed his people and all the world from the power of the devil. The early church knew Jesus was Lord of all.

    Another subtle stealing of Jesus' glory is the phrase "Jesus is my Lord and Saviour."

    Again, all true.

    But Jesus is the Lord of the whole earth. He has redeemed the earth. He is not just there for us to obey. He is now the rightful owner of the world and one day he will show it by opening the seven seals. He has become the Second Adam. He has conquered ll the usurpers Sin, Sickness, Demonic entities and ultimately death. He has brought back the earth to God and now owns the title deed of it again. Man's dominion is returned. This is what the whole creation has been groaning for: A Saviour and Lord of the Earth who is worthy to reign over it, and a return of spiritual power and authority to the sons of God to be manifested.

    Therefore, it is not enough that we worship and OBEY Him as Lord. We must also see that all things in heaven and earth bow before Him. 

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